The month of October has started off rough for me. Anxiety, negativity and unbalanced outlooks have defined my reality. Not only does it feel like a vice grip has been placed over my own experience but that of the collective as well. This is a time for staying in our hearts or risk being swept away with the current of our collective mind. Which is obviously easier said than done of course.
I know these moments are for my own growth and evolution. All these energetic obstacles have reared their ugly heads once again for me, for my benefit. Here is yet more opportunity to take what I’ve refined and apply in real-time to see how much I’ve learned and how far I’ve come. Yet — in these moments, during these periods, everything feels hopeless. As if I’ve lost all that I’ve struggled to gain within myself.
My struggle these past couple of weeks was with accepting where I am on my path. When I get stressed out with life, I begin future-scaping reality, which inevitably leads me to the illusionary conclusion of “not being enough.” Whether that “not enough” is projected onto me, my loved ones, or my life situations — it causes much suffering as I attempt to re-orient my perspective back to True North.
WHAT WE THINK WE KNOW
The other night, as I was beginning to fall asleep, I had a twilight “dream.” In this dream I was eating dinner at a table. I was sitting with a knife in my right hand and a fork in my left. Being that I was in a “first-person” perspective allowed me to see this “dream” from my “own two eyes.” As I moved the fork in my “dream” by rotating my hand — my hand in “real-life” also moved in the exact motion and pattern.
What I observed from this “dream” stimulating my physical reality isn’t the first time I experienced this. There have been many moments when I would be falling asleep and dreaming simultaneously. In these “dreams” the mechanics occurring, like throwing a baseball for instance, would occur to my body in this reality. I would mimic the act of throwing a baseball or catching a football as if it were happening to me in “real-time.”
Why this dream stuck out was the epiphany I had while it was happening; “this life isn’t at all what we think it is.” I often use the term “game” or “movie” to better explain these lives we live as human beings upon planet Earth. It’s as if we are walking a pre-determined existence almost like in the movie “The Truman Show.”
We “think” we have control over the external script, scenes, and settings. Yet, what if we are being walked through these experiences without much more than the capacity to observe them and learn?
What was so profound about this “dream” was that it really wasn’t a dream at all. It was more of an astral projection where I had found myself in two different human experiences at once. Where my infinite consciousness existed within two places simultaneously and I was able to experience and observe both realities happening at the same time.
WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN
What came to me as I was observing this, was how much control we don’t have within our lives. We are exactly where we’re supposed to be most of the time — especially if spiritually-minded and heart-focused. By observing the happenings within our lives can determine this quickly.
If we are trekking the path we’re supposed to be on, things will happen “good and bad” but nothing so severe that it rocks the foundation beneath us. What would be the point in causing us to shift our entire perspective if we’re already on the path that has been designed for us? Challenges and downturns will always occur in the game of life because inevitably, what comes up, must come down. Yet, when on path — these will only prove to strengthen our wit and sharpen our resolve.
If we are getting into trouble with the law, getting hurt constantly, or losing out on opportunities regularly — we are most likely off-path. The Universe is always showing us the way to our destiny. It’s up to us to decipher its code. For instance — Car accidents, rolled ankles, and severe colds & flus are all beacon guideposts telling us that we’re going the wrong way.
These events force us to stop and take inventory of ourselves and our lives. We failed to pay attention to ourselves. We failed to heed all the red flags telling us that we’re moving too fast, unconsciously, in the wrong direction. Whether we choose to heed the warning bells before disaster is upon us — is up to us. Either way, we came here for a purpose that is bigger than any one of our human lives.
Each human life lived is a facet within a fractal of the overall gemstone that is Earth life. A totality of experiences threaded together to create a mosaic tapestry of learned love. We have all agreed to come here at this time to play a role. In the past, free-will meant something completely different than it does at this point in space-time.
We are all now on a conveyor belt towards a common destination that which nothing can stop from coming. It is our choice to continue playing in the human illusions or surrender into what is already unveiling before us.
FORREST FROM THE TREES
I had lost my ability to see the Forrest from the trees. I could no longer remember why I had even chosen to come here in the first place. When I begin spinning my wheels and running myself ragged, my balance is thrown off-kilt and I’m forced to find my way back to center. These moments are scary for me due to how visceral they can be.
Even when I’m aware of the illusions I’m playing in, it sometimes isn’t enough for me to not play in them. For instance, I “know” this Earth game isn’t real and everything is divinely perfect. Yet — consistent application of this perspective in the face of overwhelming adversity is exhausting and eventually broken down.
Human life isn’t about avoiding “bad things” and “negative experiences.” It’s more about how we choose to deal with “bad things” and how we roll through “negative experiences.” We are the beings of this game after all, as we watch the human be, do, and become. What if no matter what we did, we would end up in the negative moments that drive us mad?
What if the point was to find the golden thread keeping us from expansion?
What if we didn’t have as much free will as we thought?
Being that I tend to be very hard on myself leads me to being in situations that leave me being hard on myself. It’s as if I’m manifesting the exact lessons I need to learn through the experiences this human brings me through. I believe I have control over “him” and his “way.” Yet, what if he’s being divinely guided to provide me with the ultimate experience in observation?
What if our only choice was how we choose to leverage each moment for spiritual expansion or emotional contraction?
What if we couldn’t fail so long as we didn’t give up on ourselves?
SURRENDER, RESIST, HOLD-ON, LET GO
When I surrender into this experience, into my heart-felt path, everything flows and life is grand. Yes, there are challenges and life isn’t perfect but I’m not miserable. I’ve chosen to accept to live life in flow with Source and the Universe. When I resist, push, or pull my way through this human experience, I suffer greatly.
I want it to be something it isn’t, faster than I can materialize it, and choose to see everything from a half glass empty reality. Nothing has changed, I’m exactly the same, yet my mindset is completely different. This then breeds a completely different experience for me.
One day, I love the path I’m on and find myself beaming with gratitude. The next day I no longer am and find myself in energetic turmoil. These shifts in perspective are projected externally to the life I’ve chosen to live. Yet, the only thing that has changed is my perspective and current energetic outlook.
When everything was grand and I was in love with my life I allowed myself to flow with ease, grace, and compassion. When things are “bad” and I’m no longer in flow, I project what I’m not doing for myself outwards. I feel that I’ve gone backwards and lost my step in a way. Yet, big picture sees that this ensures that I look at what I’m currently over-looking to create synergy and balance once again.
WE ARE NOT IN CONTROL
This life isn’t what we were taught it to be. Many have taken the perspectives of prominent other humans as “gospel” without ever deducing, through their own experiences, if it has merit or not. Many of us have surrendered our sovereign perspectives over to a higher authority outside ourselves. This leaves us believing through our limited scope that we are lowly humans living an individual life worthy of very little.
When we take a step back and observe the human experience for what it is, we can truly see that this life isn’t at all what it seems. The free-will we believe we have is that of perspective alone. Our destiny was laid out for us long ago. How we choose to see this experience is completely on us. However, each human life is a facet of the collective hologram that completes the total experience we are all “walking” together.
When we finally let go of the idea that we are in control of anything outside of our perspectives is when true happiness, joy, and peace can enter our existence. Needing to be something, someone, or somewhere else is failing to surrender into the perfect experience designed by you for you at this time.
We’re here to expand our consciousness and elevate our soul. All we have to do when finding ourselves struggling is to simply let go. Yet without ever holding on too long, how would we know when to finally release?
Every situation we find ourselves in is PERFECT.
Every situation we handle “good or bad” is PERFECT.
In the end, we aren’t the humans doing this life but the observers experiencing it. Let it go and let it flow — grace is on the other side.
With Gratitude,
Just brilliant!!! You're gonna go far young Man, very far!!! May you enjoy the fruits of your labor.